sometimes i realli wOnder.. wuD would happen iF he were to juX died like the way the j1 ger did? would i isolate myself in my own world? would i forget him in times to cum? i realli haf no idea... oR wuD would happen iF i were to juX zZz anD neva wake up fRom miee dReams ever again?
still cant help pondering.. where dOes the gate bt life anD death leads tO? a big question mark juX got stuCked up there in miee mind..
i neva had to faCe so many deaths in miee entiRe 18 years oF life.. 18 1/2 to be eXact.. i muX haf been so damn sheltered... fiRst was xixi's fren niCole.. whom i cant believe died @ 16.. anD nOw this j1 ger.. needless to sae.. i find it kinda hard to accept as well.. i mean they aRe all sO young! omg omg omg!
all these kinda haf an impaCt on mi... in one way oR anOther.. it makes mi thankful tt i m @ least still able to bReathe.. taking in o2 anD giving ouT co2... this miRaculous simple aCtion is the key tO deteRmine ya ability to do things.. i am thankful fOr the faCt tt i m still able to walk jump run eat studY.. all the sudden, juX the thought of being able to do juX all these things makes mi feel blessed..
anD all these triggered miee chain oF thoughts.. u neva nOe when is the last time you will be seeing toking oR playing wiF someone.. smthg can juX happen uneXpectedly.. w/o ani warnings or wudsoever.. anD u loSe the someone juX liddat... and tt will be the last time u tok wiF the person...
am glad tt thRough miee granny inCident anD all these.. i feel tt i haf gRown anD matuRed somehOw.. i haf learn to appReciate @ least.. smthg whiCh i neva knew how to..
anD like wuD i alwiX said.. a new p3rspeCtive is all tt u nid.. things will be different =D
smile, sweeties! *huggies
-YingX luRfs hEr gErs-